closing day thought…

As we walked from the mineral pool back to our room here at the Solage Calistoga, I complained about how fat i have been getting lately.

We walked into our room and turndown service had done our room. On our turned down bed was a card that said this:

“closing day thought….

keep my words positive: Words become my behaviours.

keep my behaviours positive: Behaviours become my habits.

keep my habits positive: Habits become my values.

keep my values positive: Values become my destiny.

There is no dress rehersal.

This one day is YOUR life.

- a gift from Mahatma Gandhi”

Oh Ganhdi, you would smarten me up!  Time to start thinking positive again.

I was 143.8 on the gym scale here today and my pants are tight. Time to refocus.

Also our resort has bikes that we can take out to explore the area and stop in at wineries. Here are a couple pics we took.

Positively,

e

sleep? no?

oy. i think that i got about 3 hours of sleep last night. i woke up to something banging outside and that was it for me. I tried reading (Sylvia Plath’s, The Bell Jar), cathching up on FB (this is something i ONLY do if i can’t sleep or am working a night shift), and had some cereal because i was also starving, but NOTHING worked. It is 0850, and Rob is still sleeping, but i am here on the couch, typing and watching “Colin and Justin’s Home Heist”….ugh I think I kept him up most of the time that i was rolling around…

We are off to San Fran this afternoon! Excited!!! We are meeting up with Rob’s brother and his wife and their baby! I am going to carry him around and pretend he is mine! hehehe

Also excited to go for a run there. Running in a new city is such a great way to explore. After San Fran we are heading to Napa for a few days before coming home. Will be a great trip me thinks.

Maybe i will meet Obama!

My boss called me today and asked i I would join a group of people from work to attend a conference in Washington DC! I am exctied, and kinda surprised that they want ME to go! The conference is the 11th Annual International Summit on Improving Patient Care in the Office Practice and the Community put on for the Institute for Healthcare Improvement. The lineup looks really interesting. Things like this make me think that I should go back to school and do my Masters.

yay

e

Bought my dress

So…. I bought my dress for the wedding today. It was the first one that I tried on that I really liked at all. After that I went to one more store and tried on a few and the only on ehtere that I really liked was quite similar to this original one i liked. Since I wanted to make a decision sooner than later, and the second store had sold the sample of the one i liked in a sale on the weekend, I figured that i would just try on the first one and get it if i still liked it. so, that’s what i did.

There is a picture of it online, but I really think that picture does it no justice, AND I am not going to post it here because Rob occasionally peeks in a reads this and he DOES NOT want to see anything dress related. You can see a picture when the wedding happens.

Kinda sad to go get your wedding dress solo. I would have liked the opinion of someone that knows me, ya know. Not that the girl selling the dress wasn’t lovely, but she may have commission to think about…or maybe not. Do you make commission selling wedding dresses?

So that is another thing off the list. I sure hope i still like it by the time it arrives in JULY!

Sorry i have been a pouty, negative beechacha lately, but that’s the way i am when i don’t exercise and eat garbage!

e

hmmm

i am going to try on a wedding dress tomorrow. i really liked it when i put it on the first time and i there has only been one ther dress that i really like. i am NOT happy with my body today and how i have been doing lately in the food (eating WHATEVER i want) and exercise (doing virtually nothing) departments. i want to think that when the wedding comes i will be fitter, tighter but if i go tomorrow and decide to get this dress, they will measure me as is. in my current glory. with the jiggles and the wriggles and the bumples, and that makes me sad. i don’t want to look at the wedding pictures and hate everyone that i am in.

so, what am i going to do about this? because sitting around and pouting about it while i watch some tv and eat ice cream sure isn’t going to help!

get a move on! yo!

Keep on Keepin’ on

The Bachelor is just starting as I type this…i am a sucker for this show this season, just because Jake is such a charmer. Anywhoodles… (and i am glad that rozlyn beechacha is gonezo!)

I think I mentioned that I have not been training with my trainer since the beginning of December because my sessions were done and we are moving/changing gyms. I have noticed a bit of a difference already and my weight has gone from around 137 to about 143 today at the gym. This is with Christmas and a week in Mexico mixed in. Not a big dealio, but still not a great feeling. We actually did three good runs in Mexico and hit the gym one day, so 4/7 ain’t bad. Going to the gym now, not having a trainer decide what you are doing for an hour, makes me feel “undirected”, even thought that isn’t a word. I like it when someone has a plan and tells me what to do, and I liked when i didn’t have to come up with that plan. It is my all or nothing attitude coming out. I feel like unless I can do it completely right and perfect I shouldn’t do it. (as you can imagine, this leads to many an issue for me, because it isn’t just in the exercise department where this attitude rears its ugly head!)

I did go to the gym today and rocked a little elliptical and ab work! HiYa!

I am thinking about getting back on WW as that, combined with exercise was very effective for me when I did it with my BF.

This is a schizo post, kinda allover the place.

Anyone out there doing the WW for the new year?? Anyone use the WW online? How is it? Would you recommend it?

Anyone else want to come be my Bachelor watching buddy???

PEACE OUT

Let’s catch up!

I have been negligent.

- I worked a ton up until the end of a night shift on Christmas. It was a slow night and i was just wishing i could go home and have them call me if a patient came in. I didn’t see anyone between 1:30 and 6:30. Apparently things aren’t so “Emergent” on Christmas night!

- We flew to Calgary for Christmas and got to see both our families. Lovely. I went to two dress shops and found out that what i liked in a picture, wasn’t what i liked best on my body. Didn’t see that coming even though everyone told me that would happen. So i fell for the dresses that made my waist look smaller and my stomach look flatter! Sue me!

- That’s funny, people don’t really say “Sue me” in Canada…

- We got home on Jan 1 and me BFF/MOH came and we went to two more dress shps here in Toronto… Dress shopping exhausts me. Really. I should have taken her to more places but i just couldn’t do it. Good news is, I think I found the dress.

- I have only worked a couple of shifts this week, but the annoyance level i reached by my lazy coworkers was high. I need to stop letting other peoples laziness make me want to quit my job…

- Rob bought me a book called “Stop worrying and start living” for Christmas… I have a problem! (the book, however, is great so far. so many handy tips)

- It has been cold and snowy here for over a week. I thought i left this garbage in SK!

- Funny note – Toronto issued some sort of COLD ALERT today because it was going to get down to like -20 with the windchill tonight. This is hilarious to me as -35 plus windchill is still a nice day if the sun is shining in SK during the winter.

- We are heading to Mexico in just a few hours for my dear friend Alison’s wedding. I was slepping at 9:00, but my noisy a#$ neighbours woke me up by, get this, running up and down the stairs over and over. I swear these people next door have hooves. Sharing a wall with someone elses house is not fun! So it is 11:38 now and we have to be at the airport at 4 am. Guess i will sleep on the plane! MMM sun!!!!

- Oh, yes, almost forgot. My trainer sessions ended in Dec and we are moving so will be changing gyms, so i didn’t by more sessions. I have noticed that this decrease in intense a&^ kicking plus my inability to control my overeating in December has resulted in feeling like a sloppy, giggly mess. I wish i could avoid these feelings, but again, i have a problem! Must refocus!

- Does anyone else not make new years resolutions? I never do.

OK that’s all for now.

check this out

http://oneoutfit.wordpress.com

a friend of mine is doing an experiment…

looking for wedding things on Etsy…

So, what do we think of this dress? You could probably switch up the sash colour too.

and these for the little flower girls

So cute, no? i think i would ditch the hair ribbon though…

love this! or maybe that little girl is just the cutest thing ever!

I also love all the little goodies here, like this little gem (or many gems)!

Sweetness…..so pretty and romantic…

I like the style of these invitations…

I also think these are neat…don’t know if they are the look we are going to go with though…

also like this look though, not the pink, but the cutout in the brown…

We could also incorporate this logo…since we were engaged in Paris and all…and use our names, not these ones!

Cake/cupcake (/cheese…if rob has his way!) topper??

Enjoying this hair..mine needs to grow, or i will be glueing someone elses hair in there…maybe not…

OH SO MANY NICE THINGS!! WHAT’S A GIRL TO DO??

My BF/MOH is coming to Toronto in January and we will be doing my first visits to dress shops.  Pictures WILL be posted! Tres excitemente!

not much to say…

I don’t have much to say lately.  I am working more than anything else, and I can’t tell you anything about my work, really, well not about the good parts, so i don’t have much to say.

- This package of sessions with my trainer are used up and I only have one more day off before going home for Christmas

- We have to move Feb 1 because the house we are renting is  being sold so i am thinking buying more sessions at my gym would be a waste, since we will most likely have to change gyms

- i haven’t really been running at all because everytime i do, my foot feels broken

- i have been stressing out about basicaly everything lately.

blah blah blah

thinking about going to WW again…..it felt my best while i was doing it.

sorry. i am a debbie downer today!